Every once in a while you stop and think to yourself. What the heck are you doing with your life? You stop everything, amidst your busy schedule, to reconsider the things that you're wasting your time on. Then your flaws come up at you like blinking neon lights in a seedy part of town on a dark night. They scream to be noticed when you're trying to hide your shame.

How do you lose something so beautiful? Why didn't you hold on tightly enough? Why didn't I wake up out of my stupor sooner? I think its pathetic how I'm groping around in the dark trying to find something or someone who will fill that void. Jeremy mentioned something about a compass that pointed true north despite interferences. I want to stop twirling around... I'm tired

You talk & talk & talk...
But nothing ever happens. Changes aren't seen. I could say that fruits require effort, and effort requires time, and time is hard to come by. But its been too long without any results. Drastic actions need to be implemented. Maybe people will notice another change... Maybe they won't. But what matters is that I do something about it.